Boy's melancholy

I try to show That I'm silver and gold. Nobody know, That I'm filled by cold. Really, I can't help anybody I only hope I get lucky Because I'm nebbish, My life is rubbish. In this galaxy I'm small like pixie. I can't be sexy, I am only toxic. So I am unmarried, So I'm annoyed. No,that's not why. Reason I always cry I just want to fly, I just want to get up I want to see my level up I will be brave To save my life. I won't be slave of this craze Where is my paradise?